1.20.2011

The "I am sorry for not blogging for two months" and "My most recent leap into the Unknown"

I've been bad. Shameful, actually, with keeping up with my blog. I left it. Abandoned it in cyberspace. I promise that this will not happen again!

The last two months have been rather eventful. We moved! In to a great apartment; five houses from the beach and with loads more space! We did some painting but I have yet to add my own touches to the place. Christmas and New Years came and went and now all of a sudden we are half-way through January...could someone please tell me where the month has gone? Towards the end of December I made a decision and perhaps it was not as "life altering" as it seemed to be while I was making it but nevertheless it did change things quite a bit.

Five years, two programs, and a sizable dollar amount later I decided that I hated, I repeat hated my program at school. Hate is a strong word and I know it so maybe it was a strong disdain for it, an "Omigosh why do I have to wake up in the morning and get my butt to class" feeling, an "I will hate what I am doing for the rest of my life" feeling. It could also have been my forty hour work week and 9 classes but I will never know because I decided not to go back.

Instead I decided to pursue my lifelong dream of acting.

Acting.

The chances of succeeding a pretty slim, but the idea of living in a box as a failed actor actually seemed more appealing than finishing my program. I don't want to look back thirty years from now and regret not trying it.

A few weeks prior to making this decision I was reading an article in Self Magazine. It said that you should do one thing a day that terrifies you. For some reason this stuck with me all day. What had I done in the last two years that had really scared me? That had got my heart pumping and blood rushing? Nothing. Zilch. I actually had switched to my current program in school (Hospitality Business Degree from a BA) because business is generally a more practical degree one where you will get a job upon graduating. So really, that huge change a year and a half ago was nothing more than a step back.

So I decided to scare myself, get some guts or grow a pair (sorry Mum!) and go hog wild. I am scared and I know that it may have been a crazy decision that will later be blamed on a quarter life crisis. But right now, it gives me butterflies and makes me happy and that ladies and gents, is what your life should be all about: doing what makes you happy.

I enrolled in my first acting class in four years today. I searched for a photographer and booked my head-shots for three weeks from now. My classes start in a month. I am excited and for the first time in a long time: terrified!

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